Oh and...

In other news since this is also a housey/garden type site, Sheba the little rat has managed to remove an entire punnet of pea seedlings from a fenced garden. I found out how she did it and have since secured more of the fence to the ground. She is one determined dog, one very determined smooshed dog soon if she keeps that up. nah, would never do anything to her, she's too darn cute.

But how can a chick try and grow her own very tasty snowpeas for stirfrys when one little dog keeps trying to find nice, fertile soil to bury her bones in?

Obsessed

I am officially a nut. I'm sure of it. A member of the obsessive TTC group.

I just had to know so I did a home pregnancy test. I'm officially late by only 4/5 days and all signs are saying 'nuh, not this month honey' but I still did the test. Only since I bought it yesterday while grocery shopping and it would be a shame to waste it. Yeah..that's it.

I sat and watched the results. It said wait 3 minutes and then consult. Ok, after 3 minutes one pink line came up, on the packet that meant negative. Ok, I can handle that. I knew it would come up a no, so hey, that just confirms it. I took it to RiFF to show him the results, him never having seen the whole test thing before. While we were looking at it, another line stared to show, only faintly, but he saw it an I saw it. What does it mean? Were the too of us hoping to see something and imagined it? Surely 2 people couldn't imagine the same thing? But sure enough, that line was still there, faint as if it was worried to come out in case we pounced on it. Packet said even if the line is faint,it's a yes. It also said dont evaluate the test after 10 minutes. I'm sure it hadn't been 10 minutes, I am also sure I have become an obsessive nut *and only after one month of trying*. Someone save me now if this is what I will be doing every month.

Do I get a little club pin or have to learn a secret handshake?

Try again.

Well it seems results are in, one month down and I'm not pregnant. RiFF and I have only recently discussed the whole idea of children and I'd only gone off the Pill about 4 weeks ago so could I expect anything more? When talking to Mum recently she was telling me about how she fell pregnant at least 2-3 months after ditching her pills, but thats Mum. She's got 4 children to speak of.

I am a little disappointed I guess. It's funny but when we first started talking about the idea of children, part of me was a little nervous and alot scared. Did I drink too much? Was my health going to be able to cope? How were we going to juggle house repayments, me being off work, incomes, things like that? I'm still really nervous about it all happening and in some funny way, maybe thats why karma/fate said 'not this month.' Perhaps I'm being given time to get used to the idea. I mean, my sister was in a state of denial for 9 months until she was in hospital, in labour and then you could see the state of play really kind of sunk in. Dude, you're having a baby.

So while it's been an interesting time talking to people, and reading all this scary stuff about things to eat, things you can't eat, things you shouldn't do etc. and I think I've gotten over my initial 'Holy crap, what are we doing' stage, I'm disappointed that it wasn't this month. So TTC (trying to conceive) we still are.

Time for something new...

I've started this new blog, as a way of writing stuff that I want to write, but in the meantime keeping it close to home.

Things have changed in the household and I need a space to just record it without people in RL reading and making judgements as some are want to do. It annoys me but hey, this one can be the happy, housey one, the other one can be for cynicism and my usual blend of sarcasm. Yeah, works for me. :-)

So we'll see how it goes.